Balance

so prior to this last little while, I have been out of the dating scene - and once I decided it was time to try it again, I handled it like I handle everything else - full steam ahead. I was in the dating boat again, and I was paddling - not sure where i was going, but confident that it had to be 'that' way....so I've gone on a few, and i've spent some really great times with my girlfriends. I am a social butterfly these days.

Out with friends yet again last night and one of them said I think it's important that you're getting yourself out there, and you know? I tend to agree. Here's a woman that's stronger than most, beautiful inside and out, dealing with her own stuff...but offering me words of encouragement. I realize that I am a glutton for this attention. I sat there with three friends and soaked up the love. Amazing women - each with their own strengths, each with their own trials and tribulations. We are all so very different, but the common thread is the support we offer.

In my social butterfly period I have been flitting from one group to another with a few dates in between, and I really do feel grounded when I'm able to sit with my friends and just let it all hang out (figuratively, because if I did let it all out - they would have kicked us out of the restaurant).

It is becoming more and more clear to me as I paddle along that I want that in a potential mate as well. And this is odd to me - I have always prided myself on my ability to do it myself, how independent I was, how i did it all by myself, etc. and now I am looking for someone to allow me to fly but be able to come and land on them, soak up the support and then fly again. I'm also realizing that that flight pattern doesn't necessarily have to be separate from him either. Strange - I might have to ponder that some more.

In talking with friends who have amazing husbands, I have learned that they do just that. They're not absorbed in one another's lives - they each have their own 'thing' going on, but they do take the time to stop the flitting and land with one another, regroup, reconnect, reground and then carry on. I love to people watch, and sometimes I think I see these moments of reconnection - it's a shared moment. I strive for that in my next relationship.

The ultimate balance of You, Me and Us.