Hiatus

sometimes you just have to take a breather....I mean a real honest to goodness breather. And that's exactly what I've done...and man, did it feel good.

As my first blog back, I thought I would try and share a new theory - a new outlook, a new vision. Well to me, anyway. And really, isn't a blog about the person writing it and their incessant and pompous need to share their inner most workings with an unsuspecting public? Nah...nobody reads these things anyway.

Back to my thoughts...
I was lamenting the other day about the woes of my trivial and mournful life. How come I can't find true love? Why can't I make more money? Why am I always behind the 8-ball? Why am I not happy? When will this all end? etc. - you know the list. It's the hamster wheel of negativity - and when it starts to spin, it can really spin...but I had a thought. Okay, maybe it wasn't really mine. Maybe it was spurred on by a couple of truthful friends. They were talking to me about attitude. They talked to me about my vision board. I nodded. I listened (sort of), but I really wasn't letting it sink into this thick head of mine. well, until now.

Attitude. I have attitude - trust me, I have it in spades...and sometimes in 4 inch heels. But attitude can derail you and cause you to sink where you need not sink. Attitude can make you boldly go where you haven't gone before. Attitude is about perception. It's like this: I choose to think I'm sinking - therefore I sink. I choose to envision that I am frustrated in my job...and guess what? I am. I choose to let little things bother me...and so I do. I choose to think that the grass is greener elsewhere...and so it appears to be. Because that is what I have chosen to envision. I have chosen to believe that things could be better and that things are bad for me. And so now that is exactly what I see. I am a product of my own negativity. I have concentrated so long on how bad things are that I now actually believe it. Wait, that should be past tense: I believed it. And then a few friends (unbeknownst to one another) dropped the seeds of 'attitude' and 'vision' on me and now here I sit, writing a blog and feeling that there may be something to this.

Back to the hamster wheel. I choose to think, so the hamster spins. I choose to keep thinking and so the hamster keeps spinning. What I realize now is that it's my choosing. I control how fast it spins and how much time I want to spend on it. Here's the trick - great for all of those suffering from an inner control freak - REALIZE that it's 'YOU' doing the spinning - not the wheel. The wheel don't spin, without you on it. The negative thoughts spin the wheel so we feel so chaotic and out of control, but if we just change our perception, change our attitude - suddenly, that wheel isn't spinning anymore. Nothing physically has changed...but my perception of it has - and that's what's makes the difference.