June 29 - It's simply amazing!

...what a difference a day can make... yesterday, I felt so beaten and overwhelmed. To the degree that I couldn't even sleep most of the night. I woke up at a quarter to five, let the dogs out and then went downstairs to stare at the new 2-week old kittens. My son had beaten me there. He was lying on his side, wistfully watching the kittens as they took their first shaking steps. We made some small talk, but mostly just sat and watched these new kittens take in the world with fresh eyes. That thought has stayed with me throughout the day: fresh eyes...do I dare say that I could take on the world with fresh eyes? would the problems that seemed so insurmountable and overwhelming yesterday suddenly become foolish and easily overtaken?

Maybe. maybe it's just how we look at things - how we choose to colour our paint-by-number world. Yesterday, the legend said that all the "1's" must be 'yellow' - and look what it got me: overwhelmed, distressed and sleepless. Today, I think that I will colour whatever comes to mind - and if a "1" is yellow, and another "1" is black...so be it. I'll enjoy the diversity and the freedom I have to choose it.